Good - bad,wrong- right,Beautiful-ugly...away from the dichotomy

My attempt to understand present takes me to past. I arrived up here safely. I wonder how can i ride further looking at past but it was beautiful. When world is busy planning for future I turn back and contemplate about life and relationship.

How strange our life has become!! I always wanted to understand human, emotion, relationships and sexuality. My understanding is not enough but I am observing keenly. My keen observation is leading no where so I am holding onto the past and playing with thoughts to manufacture good words so that I can write... Good - bad , wrong- right, Beautiful- ugly... away from these dichotomies.

I am dwelling on the thoughts to find out an answer how our past can revisit us beautifully. Journey was discontinued yet past re-arrives not haunting and hurting. But it leaves also making another hole once again.

This morning, I collected these ideas... life was sinking long way back before I realized it was sinking. The sinking was smooth not rapid but it was gradually. So now nothing can hold it. No, helping hands are not fragile but you can't save the one who is choosing to sink