Sensitive but yet not Scholar...

I might be unable to realize a fact where generalization in life is wrong. I wanna cry out loud, I want set my way where my position will be visible from all direction and angle. Will I be heard then? My visibility test will take nothing more than my presence but why I am not being counted.

I visit many places. Everyone welcomed me but I was uninvited... I feel. Restless my heart seeks for inner peace, it doesn't know there is problem inside it... itself is a problem. It desires for everything which shouldn't be desired by it. It fears off being alone, to lose what doesn't belong to it. Sensitive but not a scholar my heart is. It keeps asking for what it doesn't deserve. But feels it has been deserted by exigencies of cruel world.

My heart scuttle off of a conjugal life. I want to run away from questions, accusations and justifications. I want to be respected, desired, wanted, welcomed and watched by special nearness.
I know this life is long and also spent big time. I do open up easily. I tell everything but words are not enough to understand me.

None's priority matches so I am a left out I feel. Certainly I don't want that and searching for solution. At the cliff or at the crowd. I might cry among a crowd. I might jump off the cliff...

Lost my way... Though I know it properly.