I am addicted with this atmosphere
I can't take anything
And can give no pleasure to it
Relation of give and take is already gone

A Feeling left a bit is dead
They shun my achievement
I mixed up my pleasure and pain
I put myself with the principle "Carpe Diem"
But near my horizon I met bunch of people deaf to me

They behave well but they are schadenfreude in real
They scare me and I'm rude to them