Sandhya Thapa

The sweetness of the word I feel night Then i was wishing for your warm near sight Could see you and feel you cause I feel our love is too bright tonight I have planned no game to play with you Now I can say our love is so true I'm same me and you are old you But tonight I'm feeling like something so new I think I'm enjoying a lot being with you That's why I gathered the courage to say I love you Hoping this time I'm feeling love which is so true All the time I am wishing to be with you No, forceful attempts but my heart is shifting to you Simple you are, no flash you need but you are so special to me You helped me to write romantic lines I remember you and I smoothly can write About me and you and our love what (how) should be it like It's not the moment so beautiful But your presence decorated everything With all these feelings in my heart I wanna say, Oh! Ya I love you indeed. (8th Oct!!) 💟💟💛💛😍😍

Trying to write what you have said Recalling everything just what you confessed I don't remember if you have said Something like you love me a lot Or, you said but I couldn't hear With an absent mind, I still try to recall What you said was just saying for saying or something real It's the darkest night or still some light is there to please There we had, your few words passed just by Searching the soul of the meaning of yours thought I was still silent and wishing for your word Because your words were so appealing to my heart We aren't supposed to begin a journey And I don't understand why I see so much life in your simple words You were talking about fantasy and I wish it to come true When I'm scared and alone I want to run to you The firm belief I have, having you by my side After having all those stuffs hope, you won't be blind Move not with indifference mood and keep it mind Sometime you turn out to be exactly how I want Wa...

I don't know what had driven you, What you'd confessed was fake or true You said every little thing, not so new To me, and now I'm wondering why I am feeling blue Silently I was saying it to you, stay with me always You are so strong I tell you, you said everything Still holding few feeling in you Having said all the stuffs, you made your way easily Talking with you is like living life exactly as I imagine Nothing will materialize as you say and I imagine any soon You do enjoy now I know I do too but how long can u hold me Neither you are sure nor I am (25th Sep !!)

Determined if you were, you could help yourself Moment is less effective if you don't care Assumed heart treats you in a wrong way Wishes are never to fulfill Hopes are always left broken Expectation but still remain high and fine Life is sometime beautifully unsuccessful Journey is sometime nothing but jumble of wrong judgements Experience may lead you to wrong path You still find no solution to fix it all You wonder much, you don't know where to start You try to make it better but you commit another mistake High and low tide has to flow With every to and fro, it has to make sound You are part of it, so feel free to give sound out of it Everyone is to complain but not to understand They show the way and play with all the possible logic Nothing works to console naive heart The search had no concrete finding When you know what are you searching You are in rush to reach nowhere Like Sisyphos in a modern world One has to accept modern day absurd...

I am addicted with this atmosphere I can't take anything And can give no pleasure to it Relation of give and take is already gone A Feeling left a bit is dead They shun my achievement I mixed up my pleasure and pain I put myself with the principle "Carpe Diem" But near my horizon I met bunch of people deaf to me They behave well but they are schadenfreude in real They scare me and I'm rude to them

You were there for me every time I needed Thanks a lot for that but I don't need it anymore You cared for me a lot you stayed with me always But that's all enough, I don't seek it again You are so kind, you are so loving Its what I don't want Don't look back to me Just move ahead and don't turn around Despite the fact that you are there for me I can't reach to you So much you have done for me But I can't pay you So, I desire to say you to go To the direction, I don't follow Don't make a word but silence is enough Look makes no matter when the wish is the same Today it is declared that you aren't my Romeo It is proved I'm not your Juliet With the head held high move on Don't desire to rest and ask my help Cause I seriously feel, you aren't what I need I'm not the one you should look for Our heart is so far so don't desire to bring body so near Use your mind not the heart and try to think ...

Mostly, she is a happy person. Her eyes are looking too bright tonight. The moon is in its sabbath and stars are spreading some rays and struggling with the cloud.Time has almost stopped, if he was there  it would have been like that. As her sparkling eyes are staring at slow sound of empty heart, slow breeze blows her hair and she is recalling everything. She is weak and her heart is considered fragile.She has so much emotion in it. The emotion keeps her in motion. She still doesn't know, how to give a sound to her racing heart. Her emotion is spinning her and her mind stops for a while. Every corner of her heart lightens up, every time she finds him in her heart. This is a part of the rhythm of love for him which she hold in her heart. All the love songs, she listens, she dedicates to him. Either its a full moon night or moonless sky, she wishes to be with him. She simply knows i...

You are my reason to smile You are my reason to feel good When things go reverse You are my reason to be sad You are my reason to soak me in pain I believed you to call me I was sure that you will turn around But you moved away like you never cared me This is what I am mourning on How can walking away is so hard for me? I was told, we shall solve the problem together It seems like its not the problem that's problem but Its us... You now doubt on me Nothing matters to you and to me... we say That's why are pushing us away Sorry I'm but you don't care And all my truth you can't bare Same language but we both can't understand and yes we are so near With all the bitter thoughts no sweet words we can't hear.

Thank you You made a move You did the best Didn't say I miss you Now nothing is keeping me outta blue Easier I hope it was for you It was easier to move away Than to look into your eyes When I knew your move was last Tear didn't roll down Heart didn't have nasty blast It was just beating like before When you said "I love you" for the first time New changes everyday Now only regret I hold Is...  I won't be able to see changes in you any more Unnecessarily, I was serious then When last wish went in vain But still wish is there The mind, heart, life have to have a wish And I still have a wish... though hopeless I couldn't have that place You couldn't make a space What I lost wasn't a race But I feel I arrived little late

The love you offer me is the best among the best I know its both spiritual and physical and I don't care rest Now I want everything in real You being next to me and I will lean on you Move your hand around and try to feel See how much my love is pure and true Its you all in my mind still can't say what it means You came and moved but I still can feel your heart beats Still your presence I can feel in me In your words, all my life, love and future I can see Few more time I would like to spend with you Your love, presence and touch are the beautiful lover's clue Your memory is making me breathless With you now I can be so careless I know you  hold me when I need All words you have said I want indeed. 19th (!!)Dec.

Crushed on dull days She sleeps and rises as always Nature of heart speaks a monologue She is singing heart's soliloquy Sometimes sad and delighted Nothing is horrible than living aimlessly Nothing is useless than being with heart, so careless Partly denied, but was destiny's favorite child Being so or whatsoever, she holds a helpless arm for the help She has it all- she shuffles again and again Some love songs, Some are romantic rhyme and rhythms But she rests on sentimental tracks to entertain

That was a sweet chocolate cake In a company of cheese and butter, yet to bake A gift yet to be given A cake yet to be cut Before time will ravish Maker is making an offer To cut it No mercy in the mind of a maker And the maker is making an offer To cut it No candle wasn't blown off No body made a formal toss  But crazy knife went across To entertain a hungry heart (A chocolate cake for a cold heart Something has to end before something to start)

The Dream I had once envisioned, scares me now Now it is scattered like unhanded  sorrow Like rust in an iron, memories are in my brain Left at a corner, like one is in a trip of cocaine With lifeless creativity, couldn't make proper success story Wish has no scope, yet wishes are there to gain lost glory The dream I was told once has lost its value, but I want it to be true Now amidst useless try that tease me as its ready for adieu Smile redefines reality with zero hope, hypocrite heart hurts Snowfall times, a peaceful sight, a soothing soul no more flirts Before I take shelter, grow older, I'd like to see That's worth my contemplation and pulls me to sleep A long, deep, peaceful beauty sleep, that's only on my to do list Those part will make me glad, as dreams give me everything again, once I had

When everything is left at wee hour You feel nothing is left that could be done And you are addicted  to rhythm of life Split somewhere, where there is no point That's why you are compelled To launch your pointless point Just to maintain your balance When nothing is in balance "Please don't mention about dream coming true. Because I have no plan to go on until it shows up"

They are meeting after 16 years. He is coming tonight on dinner. She seems to be so excited about his arrival. She is now recollecting all the memories once was her only reality. She lived in the world of love, faith and happiness. She is with the memory of her lovely moments made with him. She is making herself ready for him to see him in the present though she knows future holds nothing for both of them. Both of them had planned a lot for this. She is sitting in front of a mirror. She sees herself from head to toe. Her colour of her hair is different than before not completely getting grey though and almost at the close phase of fading away. She then realized, she needs to visit parlor. But she is at wee hour. He is coming soon. She needs to prepare many things before he arrives. She opens the drawer, takes an eyeliner and applies on her eye lids. She can see clearly her wrinkles at the edge of her eyes. She knows, she is not going to apply so much make ...

Accompanied with happiness and love Oh! wow how well it looks in a platter Beautifully designed with cheese and butter Tasted taste nothing is new Bit by bit but gets bitter Get yourself ready Once obtained delight couldn't long shine Hence understood gift I got wasn't mine A gift of a cake, beautifully made In a mold of a house, it was baked Though I know it wasn't mine I kept it, to avoid pain I am among plenty of plateform To present me and to perfom Unnecessarily diverted to unknown direction So, back on track with this realisation Though how much good it looked It had to be cut And also not mine, it's been already booked

I will be thankful To the wrinkles My crush, crushed me My one sided crush I know the name It was away from my frame And my crush, crushed me That pragmatic love Has become impossible In the sublime shadow Love still is ambiguous For me, I can't tell what I see My absolute learning turns to edited version of truth I got hanged, hocked All the romantic reason were ruined And now I know The reason is me All the desire ended Tag it along I am all done Feeling furious for nothing Chopped off...

I am not special but a mere spectator Hell, heaven, fly and fall are familiar Mostly catalyst emotion rules And you are prone to regret Rush and run you will be no where Being at height-less sentiments All the emotional values are flushed out Gotta respect everyone's emotions They keep their doubts and arguments I may present here myself a very nice woman when I am not Cause my previous lines prove how judgmental I am

We tend to end our celebration with the last sip But I never want it to end This sweetness should not vanish So I'm holding the sip To get this celebration going A question to mine existence The moment modified with your presence All I count is an accountability of true life's essence The party is on I am preserving it in a last sip Last sip as it ends Please somebody blow the bullet in my brain Never ever want to accept this fact The sip is about to end Stay little while more  Wishing not to long for longing any relationship We tend to save our celebration in our last sip with an only wish No more longing for anything

Half of my emotion is making me feel for her She doesn't know anything about my heart's share This kind of feeling doesn't come everyday and its rare May be for her its nothing much important and just a mere story Almost like a mirror we were near and together I wasn't her shadow nor she was mine But we were always there to solve the problem or at least to hear And now we both are lost and have at all no time All my blessings and best wishes belong to her No matter how much I will try to avoid her My heart says she is my dear Hope she says soon she is fine and fair

"Good long talks with few old friends" This very phrase made a lovely effort With little pain we shared love After few gap we had chance to see All the gain and lost came along with them and me She is in trouble, she had moment of disdain Her effort of forgetting isn't helping her She tries to escape but something has come across Finding herself alone is the main problem I believe If she could see what is disturbing her She would be fine and move so far Her love was just the waste of time She knew it but now she has to understand I conclude She has to see it, there is nothing hurts her much But its herself as I can see She needs to move on and learn to be ok After such grip, she needs to leave the thing- The relation she was in Most of the time she is miss little sunshine But now little black cloud is over her She better not wait it to move away all itself But need to change her own way Then she would be fine and act according to trends. ...

I will not regret if I don't see him again Only perfect start could have perfect start We both had nothing neither perfect start nor the end That's why I can say I won't regret if I don't meet him again Ya, its my heart has already said, how bad you are It's our fault we saw each other It's our mistake we met too I felt for you that's the terrible blunder, I tell you Who can recall the past, who can live in it again Even the luckiest stars have to fall apart Small the story is, very deep scar was the gain Every "why" can't have "because" I don't know why my heart said "I am all done and its all over" That dreamy touch you'd made in my heart Has entered to my mind Don't be surprised hearing it and be awkward to react If to react is hard for you... ... then move away and never return back You don't have to answer why you did so, You don't have to face me back You'll be in...

"I wish I could hold your hand and swear of myself that I won't forget you till my last breath." He said, and she smiled back The romance they are sharing now cost billion dollars They don't confess, they are getting into it. But denial is sure they are falling for each other Their heart is braver than they are It has already felt but their dumbo head didn't speak up A sweet story of friends forever and say- Say what?- Even I don't know- Then I 'll go if you don't have anything to say- Your thousand dollar attitude- Just thousand -Million... Happy? Every good girl had a bad to beautiful story. (Unabridged thoughts)

Coffee gives you a nice trip Crazy vape gives you a kick The stupid mind searches a logic  When simple SMS had the fairy tale magic No whys, no more whats Just romance my dear... with nature A little jealousy ... that's so sweet Not going away, we are like not two but one The voice, touch, and kiss All caught in ears Oh! my my! how fair? Everything you say Caught among the dreams once I had Broken but without crack All desires are put at the back

Time slipped away, memory kept as to cherish in a way Confession laid and dream shattered After the last good bye, I moved in a wrong way Close the moment was but vast different it created I am not confused I am certain New story moved me and I am now following wrong path Not even for a second my mind could have forgotten it Consciously it works that's why I am remembering All the time, talks ended in a wide big smile Still the response of smile is the same Though somewhere it says I'm losing the grip of something I know it might end in this way someday I am perfectly fine but though for a while I am thinking distinctly every fact Movement is no matter new to me I will do all better with the fact that I would see Glorious may not be it but mine own true fantasy It will only narrate me and speak for me Though blindly I am wishing now if it's all but dream I know its nothing but real now I have no option but To appreciate with big wide smile.

You are making me feel, you are dragging me into it You are saying  and showing beautiful path of truth Seeing is believing and believing is hard for me to do Though you are making me feel, your are dragging me into it Forever you say we shall be together How can you be so sure without seeing our futre I know you are gonna soon lost in your world Though you are making me feel, you are dragging me into it I know cause I can make a guess we may say we won't but change is inevitable Let's not keep any complain and be cool and casual that's why I say I don't know how long this good feelings may remain Though you are making me feel, you are dragging me into it. We don't share the common lives. we think same thing differently We wish for each others happiness, good lives and prosperity We don't say we see our lives together, we are each others world Though you are making me feel, you are dragging me into it. We both have feelings, deep down ...

Truth, validity, lies don't matter much When lies play it shatters you to tears Validity sometime makes no difference in life Truth which comes along to disturb All have same effect that hard to face Yet heart beats Anyone can hide anything from anyone Not so necessary to speak the secrecy We all have our own priories to make Inside the circle of priorities you may get lost You may fall off and entangled somewhere We try to get up and hold back You want to live your life at your mark But it doesn't move, how you wish Scold your god and your luck When you find yourself alone to cope Either you be happy or be sad Things change and nothing remains End also has its inevitable fact It's so simple to understand but hard to face But sometime nothing works out You lie on the bed thinking nothing you see but clock You see nothing is exciting and easy Nothing makes a difference either you do or not Even tears drop don't give you any answer Reaso...

What does your regular touch symbolize? It is just a simple concern or Something deeper and special things will be confessed Now I can see the feeling being changed From the last evening I could see few little change in me At the time when we both could see eachother Wished the moment if I had stopped right there We both were so happy being so near I wonder now and still in deep thought To find someone else like you will ever be possible Things are going and nothing so horrible Moment of uncertainty hope never knocks us again Though being separate for awhile will come around Hope of meeting again never died out Keeping every little fact about you and me in my head Someday you will just don't keep coming and going But will come to stay remain together Amazingly, few positive turn I see Though you moved, you come back for me Later we shall be together, one dream of yours and mine

You have a glowing face and pleasing sound That can make anyone spell bound Your eyes and forehead, lips and nose They all have the beauty of the rose Fair complexion and your delicate skin A beautiful dimple and a cleft chin You have amazing smile and a dazzling grow of teeth As of an angel in the myth You have dusky sleekly and smooth hair A friendly person like you, is always rare

Tell me the thing found around? What can make you spell bound? From where the beauty comes and goes? Is there anything like the rose? A good answer-er can you be? Whats the best thing you like to see? Whats from heaven whats the miracle? Is anything in a girl as of an angel? You become a flatterer not an answer-er Still I ask you what is rare?

Love is not attraction, sir Love is not gravitation, sir Love is not as you think A dominant fashion, sir Love is an automatic phenomenon It's not an intention, sir You believe, love is at gazing You need a correction, sir Love is always looking at the same direction, sir

Extremely, I trembled when I heard the story She was so happy and sharing every glory Instead of being happy with her I was wishing differently Worrying just about me but I was pretending to be fine perfectly From the start I was so sure things are going to end-up like this We both have to move on, every good time is just to miss sometime Ya that undoubtedly hurts but what to do I can't share She would never know about it cause she won't be there She'll never know how I felt when she told me the reason of being happy I will never let it come on my face and let her know even a bit of it I would rather keep a silence or make a move Before she leaves and asks about me to approve Let her never wonder on my silence Let her never notice my feelings She would be lost in her own world and never agree about it I will be missing her always with out letting her know even a bit Sometime I want to say the fact on her face But I afraid it will turn out to b...

One fine Sunday morning On my solitude being I wanted a complicated thing Sun wasn't looking happy and bright It chose to remain behind the cloud And cloud made to remain unsettled  Mind said I chose wrong path Again heart asked what was right It replied end justifies means That's why I'd lost the fight Tears were trying to stay back Why alone eyes has to pay ? When mind and heart couldn't identify The mind was holding tears back For the heart's sake They both know, it wasn't my mistake Within the rain drops and beneath the cloud Heart desires to come out and cry out loud Still feelings aren't free and it is bound I am trying to forget but can't forgive For either being cheated or fake words I'd received Regretting I am cause I let myself deceived  

I don't believe love is for a moment but for a life time Love can't be seen but deep down in heart it will always remain For the sake of our love and our lives Will you answer me the question which is quiet simple "Will you love me till my dimple turns to wrinkle?" For the moment I know how you are My heart started to pound up and down It was not the event for me but a process, my dear So, my love, say "Yes" and set the best love example "Will you love me till my dimple turns to wrinkle?" Distance between me and you will be covered When, how much we feel for each other will be measured Nothing but life time company and love we both desire for Confession may not cost much but the answer "yes" for the question "Will yo love me till my dimple turns to wrinkle" Love gives you the power, even in pain it will make you smile If its true and for life- time, it doesn't matter dista...

Sun rises bright or moon just illuminates on the unknown way She chooses to move along to see beautiful day Like all those chocolate chips, decorative cherry on the cake Done all the beautiful preparation but to ravish She doesn't understand its her part of happiness or sadness She thinks, she still can fight alone in her long race There is nothing to fight for but her own views to compete To win and to be a winner she knows she shouldn't cheat The distance of her desire doesn't lie away thousand mile No option she has got but to move on with smile Even for a while she can't relax and sit She has to move on and on and learn to wait a bit.

Put the thought on it little while Crush on the luck hidden somewhere in file Want to see tomorrow, need to move thousand mile Few moment talks end in many queries Problems arrive not in single episode but in series Sweet memories are gone but worst are kept in diaries ... like this Mirage looks so beautiful but in near has no value The thing you desire most I know you miss You want everything in life but you don't want any risk Less you know you like that much You don't care a thing you love the most When you are sad and your life is at rush You are happy with your easy life But you add complex vibe Hardship follows you either you wish for smooth ride

The moonless night shared so many things with  me The sad- eyes in the mirror didn't let me see The invisible star fell off, ...so bad I made a wish out of it But mine heart said I am not free Along the way that moves alone, I search for a company Within the crowd I couldn't see my shadow coz there are so many... Many shadows though not enough and I wasn't ready For creating something I ever wanted and being so funny Monotonous life only holds you down Among the ambiguous world there is no such crown Where either a reason of  happiness or to smile is not a mere clown You think alone and a lot at the busy town

Just for the moment, I wanted to feel this You'd be in my heart, and that is god's blessing So beautiful the feeling is, wish to remain till the end Wonderfully you landed in my life and I got the best paint Sometime you only ignore the emotional wave No matter what just make sure it won't fade away Promises could be forgotten in the span of life Just make sure you'll see me back when I'm not around Right from the start we both know we were meant for each other That's why we are now happy to call "My Better half" forever I'm your part and you are mine and our love is divine Among the sparkling jewels your love makes me shine

Little history on file With the blend of his mild smile Can't forget his gesture I enjoyed his lecture Have you fallen in love with yo' teacher!! Well that sounds a bit bitter! It's fine to you, but he is gonna be a cheater! What if he turns to be a flipper! Watch out girl where's yo' blip per!! Quit running in the snow on yo' slipper (rofl) You have guessed it right I was spellbound with his single sight He seems to be my Mr. right I am talking about my teacher He seems to be a perfect preacher So preacher can't be a flipper You never know the height of the hill till you take a fall Yeh true that preacher ain't a flipper but might not be all Take a look around, I am sure its dark! cause your mind is busy building an ark! so as to float in the watery waves! and in the head there is too many caves!! unforeseen, the pain You, keep on walking the road! and you wake up and be, yet the prince awaiting, toad!! If its mine prince...

Harmless and always unhurt It's what they called "God" Happy in all season Unbroken and not worried too Happy in all season if its a heart They will all call it a mere rod I am tired of being so I also deserve to be hated May be this is called maturity No one respect someone's sincerity Step - by -step crawled up In this high tech and low valued world Truth is strong, but never single and final

A little mercy and kindness Stumbled twice Felt bad, mind panicked But heart, all same- remained untouched No i don't want anyone who reads my words But in search of some who reads my silence Met at the crossroad once again The wish was there but road has to bend No meter measures my madness There is where I stumbled But hadn't miss the step Fell down But that's OK As I know I can rise back Like Phoenix, I will rise from the ashes Regaining my madness Not forgetting the game once I was playing

She resembles a beautiful tower She moves to present herself She doesn't just want to fill the space but her presence felt She portraits as she is asked She sometimes forgets what she is A character which feels or An actor she wanted to be Now she doesn't understand what she is.

Sometime I feel I am standing at the tomb of dead creativity I can't write something exciting But undoubtedly I am trying my best To pen down something interesting To have some aesthetic value How can I be so dumb? How can I be so slow? I should have something creative or non creative but a creation of mine own I am at the highest peak Not to pick anything but to fall Rest is pretty, first at the nest Mumbling only memories Standing at the tomb of dead creativity  

Ministry of mind Killed by dead desire Complicated by useless fire E pi-center is now mantled in need of a rescuer Nothing is justified Blame game is gone Killed by soft love Slides of heart And harmless hope Rocks ... all the way ... all along And the kiss is blown away To the direction from where it will never come back So wait is useless Expectation is a mistake Those who want to win Never understand it Those who is ready to lose Never have it As a moment of life, As an achievement of both sides Undefined, unseen but unified both in  heart Mind doesn't work So lost and lack A course between birth and death A personal existence (rely on it)

Probably in the heaven unseen I shall get all the answers There is no end to my question Like for the needles inside the clock A destiny is there They all move in a same circle Not regaining what was lost And there is no end to my wish Letters I have written Scattered meaninglessly They don't work as I wish They are there though Prolly they have a destination to reach Unlike me... I am at my static mode Questions come forth Are you waiting something? Are you watching something? Are you in search of anything ? I have no answer but a query to be answered Cause I am very curious.