Sandhya Thapa

रंगी बिरंगी यो संसार यी रंगमा तरंगित प्रतेक प्रहर कुन रंगमा तरंगित होला? तर बेरंगी म अनि बैरागी मेरो मन रंगिन संसारमा रङहिन म हरेक रंगले आफुलाई आफै सजाउने कोसिसमा छु, तर बेकार कोसिस गर्छन कोहि  रंगहिन लाइ सिंगार्ने, रंगाउने ति हरेक रंगले रंगाउने कोसिस गर्ने अनि फेरी मौसम संगै आफ्नो रंग अनेक रंगमा फेर्नेलाइ सम्झना अनि शुभकामना !! रंगहरुको पर्व होलीमा रंगिन रंगमा सजिरहेको यो संसारसंग नजिक भएरपनि पर लगातर यात्री, बिना रंग हिड्न सक्ला कति बेर रंगिन जगमा रंगहिन भै जाला कति नै पर पर जाने पिरमा पक्कै होइन होला रुमलिएको रंगहिन लाइ बेरंगी बनाउन होइन होला रंगाएको

I tried my silence and shout To express every bouts and doubts I tried both love and lust At last I lost Both life and luck hold unseen plot Life sucks but thanks to God It kills at the end unlike any other stuff Love lost lust lingered Unwanted uninvited Heart hurts head hold hangover Life lasts luck leaves I love conflict Conflict creates something beautiful Beautiful that blows eyebrows I romance pain I love isolation Not always not all that I wanted

They fight for their ideology Other fight for the territory And meanwhile innocents lose their glory To worship lifeless, To human full of life, they become merciless After world wars, world seems like war- less world For one, capitalism has to be sold And for other, communism is a gold So children are dying young before getting old One fights for the ideology other fights for the territory Even after they pleaded for anti- ballistic treaty and ceasefire They opted to no war yet a war- a cold war The war divided them, yet they all have become same So- cold, colder than before They don't hold heart any more Other become hopeless, and helpless prey Now all they have is, a god to pray Everyday in every language they know, they pray But unheard and unanswered they remain Even god has become merciless to them. George Bernard Shaw saw, soldiering as a coward's art He felt its an art to show you are strong enough when you are weak So seems like children...

कहिले काही नचाहिने काम गर्छु म कविता र कारणहरु बुझ्न खोज्छु म कालो रात कहाली लाग्दो हुनु पुर्व कोसिस एउटा गर्छु  म   पुरानै कुरा, कहिले पुरा नहुने कुरा सोच्छु म हरेक दिन नया सोच नआउने होइन तर जब निन्द्रा अपरचित बन्छ यस्तै महसुस गर्छु म कहिँ पढेको थिए, कविता केवल पढनकालागि बुझ्ने कोसिसले विरक्ति जन्माउछ अनि कारणले कठोर बनाउछ  कोसिसले त पक्कै कतै लानुपर्ने हो तर प्राप्ति र प्रतिक्ष्या बीच जीवन छ अल्झेको

चिसो मौसम चिसो मन अनि मस्तिस्कका मान्छे न मन समाल्न सक्छ न मौसम समाल्ने सामर्थ्य राख्छ सुन्य डिग्रीमा जमेको पानी मान्छे बन्छ कठोर कहिलेकाही कोमल पनि आकार भएर पनि आकार बिहिन जसरी पानी कहिले कठोर: बरफ त कहिले बिलाउछ बाफ बनि सायद जसरी सुन्य डिग्रीमा जम्छ पानी जम्दैछु  सुन्येतामा म पनि रहर त थियो बाफ झैँ उड्ने तर नियति मेरो समय संगै बिलाइजाने सुन्य हुनुछ, सुन्येतामा नै बिलाउनुछ एक चिसो सैयामा सुत्नुपुर्ब, तात्तिन विभिन्न बहाना बनाउनुछ त्येसैले कहिले बाफ त कहिले बरफ बन्नुछ न मौसम न मृत्यु यसको हातमा तर पनि जीत ठान्छ जम्नुमा दम्भ अनेक राख्छ जीवनमा यहि चिसो मौसम झैँ मन अनि मस्तिस्क लग्छ  साथ् अन्त्यमा

I don't seek for a life full of fantasy But I also didn't wish for a tragic story Didn't wish you to promise me beautiful life Or, for me you'd get a moon light Only wish I had, was pure lover's sight You said I completed you and I am your best track  Still I like to believe that  you loved me to the moon and back The word that you said I felt and fell for, I know now was so cheap Till now its hard for me to apprehend and get up cause my fall was so deep

सोच मग्न उनि बिना नसा नै बेहोस बर्बराउछिन कुरा एउटै एकटक टुटेका बिएरका बोत्तल  हेर्दै "सपना कहाँ काँचका हुन्छन ? सपना कहाँ टुट्छन् र? सपना त बुनिनछन्, फैलिन्छन्  लहलाउदा, कलिला लाग्छन यी त झाँगिनछन्  पनि समयसंगै सपना समालिने आड बन्छन सपनाले सताउदैन यसले बाटो बिराउदैन सपना अनि सम्बन्ध उस्तै हुन्छन" न मुस्कान ओठमा न आखा झल्काउछन् मोति दाना दुवै मिलेर फ़ेर्दैछन एउटा लामो सास दुवै गर्दैछन समालिने प्रयास अनि उ थनकाउछ धुवाको सिलसिला     सुन्येतालाई चिर्दै उसका सब्दहरु  गुञ्जिञ्छन "सपना कहाँ सम्बन्ध जस्तो हुन्छन? सपना त सरल हुन्छन? उसको कुरा सुनी उनि थप्छिन "त्यसो भए सम्बन्ध सायद काँचका " एकटक निभेका चुरोटको धुवालाई नियाल्दै उनको केशमा औलाहरु बेर्दै भन्छ, "सम्बन्ध कहाँ काँचका हुन्छ? कहाँ टुटेका काँच जोडिन्छ ? तर यहाँ सम्बन्ध जोडिन्छ, जेलिञ्छ, झेलिञ्छ कहिँ अल्झिन्छ  पनि तर यो तोडीदैन तर जोडिन्छ फेरी सपना र सम्बन्ध बीच स्तब्ध छन्  दुई  यायाबर यात्री

You set the mild music on with the shy, silent smile The musical journey of a minute A life long memories we made As I see you preparing batter to bake A toil to touch the taste-bud An appetizer is ready for a hungry heart Ready to be served Cold or hot, no matter what Chocolate chips with the cheese cake looks so best So sweet, both the memory and the taste beautiful move with the mild music of a minute A bit awkward but was awesome We moved a minute with the tune Made memories not to fade away any soon

A second time struck Left again on the same track But there is some kind of spark Then again same song sings "Winner takes it all Loser standing small" Beautiful faces and helping hands Everything is very scary Every good words poke Nothing entertains when you stand at the tomb stone Bitterly, and severely on the same lane Couldn't escape from the flame Since only maze was framed Toughest task was to come out So caught in the maze then into a jar Breathe well but couldn't grow up Needed to explore but exploded Since the jar was narrow and hollow.

There is a saving hand laid to me Though I denied to see I was walking on the lane To meet the brightest sun To taste, a thirst I hold for long As the sun smiles I feel I am shapeless I am not ruined Yes, yet to be destroyed too I am not hopeless I have chances to be made Yet to function at the best Thank you for not making me best I'm not special and not as the rest Now, I, a sunshine Yet to set A sweetheart Yet to beat or, to break

यो मान्छे कै भिड यी भिड बीच मान्छे मान्छे कै भिड बीच हराउछ मान्छे सायद केहि खोजमा छन् हराएको पो के छ होला? सोचमग्न देखिन्छन के भेटाउने अपेक्षा राख्छन? अनुभवले खारिएको खरो विचारधारा- अपेक्षा नराख हुन खुसि सदा अनुभवबिहिन, अपरिपक्कलाइ सायदै होला यो कुरा थाहा /

For the memo of the sweet experience you brought in my life before I am planning to live with you always to make few like such more Everyday waking up next to you would be like dream comes true I know you don't dream often but when you do make sure it would be best and pure As I see you in a deep sleep I am waiting for you to get up As sun rays lay on the land, your lips clasp on my forehead Your hand in my hair, a smooth move of your finger over my body As you tightly squeeze me in your arms and our giggles in our room Yes, reality is beautiful than dream I have seen all with you God must have kept you among my best and beautiful blessings As I see you planning for our beautiful future, a mild smile on my lips, Assures you, I'll be there for you forever, though these moment may slip away

थाहा छैन यो पर्खाइको अन्त्य छ कि छैन डर लाग्दैछ कतै केहि औचित्य रहदैन भनि भावनाको कदर हुन्छ या भावना कै कैदमा बन्द रहन्छु संसार सोचमग्न, प्रश्नै प्रस्न मात्र -उत्तर बिहिन सोच के काम को ? येस्तै सोच अनि संसार बीच कैद छु उकुसमुकुस बनाउने रहस्य बुझ्दैछु यो बुझाईसंग मपनि  गलत सायद तर येही बुझाइमा बरालिदैछु त्यहि सोच, संसार अनि बुझाइलाई गालि गर्दैछु दोष दिन कोहि छैन त्यसैले समयलाई नै कोषदैछु

मायामा तिमि अनि म तर हामी दुइको संसार एउटा छुट्टा छुट्टै तिम्रो अनि मेरो एउटा संसार बनाउने चाहना एउटै तरपनि अरु केहि चाहना तिम्रो तिम्रै, अनि मेरो बेग्लै यी  छुट्टै चाहनाको जगमा के एउटै संसार बन्ला र ? के एउटाले सिकेको सिक र महत्वकान्क्षा दुबैलाई पुग्ला त ? बनावटी  जिन्दगीका बनावटी कथा जिन्दगीलाई बुझ्न भन्दा बढी जिउने छ इक्ष्या

There is no more pain left Even the hardest ice has to melt Melting memories of amore Pair of eyes can see, they all are same as before And still there They all crawl someday slowly and silently To bring new emotion I have same old solution I am killing all the hard feelings The memories are surviving and so I have to To save me from all the mistakes I may make But I want to make mistakes When I made I was happiest But then there is my mind aware of my mistakes Making me sure I am not making mistakes anymore I am sinking into sorrow of being alive unlike before

सुमधुर संगीतमा रोकियो पाइला अनाएसै सुमधुर संगीतको कुरा अधुरो सब्दको भाव अपुरो तर कुरा पहिला जन्मको होइन, याद नै नहुन ति सब्द अनि संगीतको मिठास अझ याद छ हो कुरा हिजोको होइन त्यति पुरानो पनि होइन भुल्नै पर्ने बिडम्बना पनि छैन हो अझै याद छ संगै कोरेको सब्द तस्बिर लिएको पल भुले भन्नलाई माहोल ति मरेका छैनन् मेरो स्मरणसक्ति

सून्यताको कोलाहल बीच समालिने कोसिस कालो रातले होइन आफ्नै मनको गतिले जब म हुन्छु त्रसित घामको किरणमा पनि नदेखिने बिडम्बना कालो रात बीच, बिचरा एक्लो चन्द्रमा अनेक रुपमा हरेक रात भेट्छ तर मौन छ न नै दुखः न नै सुखको हो यो हिसाब  यो हो सुन्य रातमा खोजिने अनौठो जवाफ

Oh! wow, How soothing sight I saw! I was up and far Yet we were so near I was away up You were deep down Couldn't embrace each other But we could feel our heartbeat I couldn't hold you up You couldn't call me down That's how we celebrated together You were on your way We both had a glimpse of a same moon together You remained down and I were far up You have your own way I have mine single path I can adjust with you there Can you do too? Useless question, I know you'd say So didn't ask you then By the way While you were on your way You called me to wish Happy Valentine's Day I were happy but for you I have no word to pay 14th Feb, 14

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कपुर गौरम करुणा अवतारम संसार सारम भुजगेंद्र हारम

एक  यात्री, गल्लिहरु बीच गुपचुप गल्लिहरु, गुमनाम गन्तब्य यी कतै नपुराउने, सान्त गल्लि तर यात्रा यिनै गल्लिभित्र कतै त पक्कै पुग्न आवस्येक  त्यहि पुग्न गतिशील पाइलाहरु रुमलिन्छन, थाक्छन पनि तर बाटो बिराएको होइनन तर पुग्नु कहाँ छ थाहै छैन यात्रा उदेग लाग्दो, बनाउछ बहानै- बहाना गुपचुप गल्लीहरु बीच, यात्री छ प्रतिछ्यामा एक बेकारको विचार, दौडिने चाहना, किनकि यात्रीलाइ थाहै छैन कहाँ छ उसको गन्तब्यको सिमाना

The woman under the veil Sets her journey for the trail Looks shy, slow and pale But none knows her tale She sits in front of the mirror To decorate her body She needs to save herself from terror She chooses none but the image she sees in the mirror. Her pair of eyes sparkles As she sees somebody she knows on the mirror She feels braver than before To explore, to adore and to conquer

खुम्च्यिको निधार अनि मौन ति अदर ति ओठको सब्दहिन कपाइको के कदर ? बुझिने चाहनामा बाझिने तर्कले मार्दछ रहर मृत रहर र मौन मन संगै डरलाग्दो प्रहर प्रतेक पानामा सब्दले बनाउछ एक आकृति प्रस्ट ति सब्द तर किन धमिलो बन्दैछ आकृति अनेक रुप अनि रंगका, चाहना कस्तो अनौठो सपना त सपनै हो, निद्रा बिग्रेपछि बिलाइजाने ति विपनालाई के भनू, सपना अघिनै टुटिजाने

Death is only a thing that I would like to get defeated by Losing is very boring Death doesn't deny There is so much love it holds for everyone Only surety even when you lose your purity Life is illusion and death is only reality Only after success you discuss about succession and successor Don't talk about these to a defeated loser Slowly summoning your soul to it Set a peaceful journey forgetting your defeat.

हरेक दिन देखिने चन्द्रमा लाग्छ खास तिम्रो साथमा मायालु तिम्रो समिप्यतामा तिमीलाई छुदै आउने हावामा छुटै मिठास पाउछु राम्रो महसुस गर्छु हुन त म रमाउदिन कुनैपनि नसामा केहि त पक्कैछ तिमीलाई छोएर आउने हावामा हो त्येसैले रमाउदैछु तेही नसामा

The soul was floating free Like the free feather detached from a bird's body And was very much happy Sometimes soul upheavals from constrain Sometimes it is brought back down at the ground It was delighted for its free fly and fall down Until it knew about wind Then it knew it was never free Its fall was never free Wind determines its fly and fall  Wind determines the delight it holds Yes, it was all the time jubilant But life happened. Then it desired a body Got the flesh Grabbed by blood and bones An erect human body, a monument of the human soul At the ground, moves around What has to be found Clueless to reason to move too And Final exit happened  

I am brooding with the contemplation I am no more weak I am no more sweet I am no more fragile I am no more fighting I have stopped dreaming Away from the illusion Away from any conclusion I am floating like detached, balloon Yet I am no more weak, not so sweet, fragile and fighting But then again, I am no more strong too

मलाई याद नै छैन ति कुरा कसैले दोहोराउ छ कि ? मैले बुझेकै छैन केहि पनि बुझाउने कोहि छ कि ? त्यो बुझ्ने छ्यमताले अझै महत्तो राख्छ यहि हो सत्य यसै सत्यतामा छ सबै कुरा सत्यता नै भोलि हरायो भने के होला? याद म के राखुला यदि मैले नबुझे कसले अर्थाउला? किनकि झूटको त केहि स्थान नै छैन झूटा कुरा कसले याद गर्ला झूट त परिवर्तनसिल अनि झूट कसले दोराईदेला तेसैले सत्यता नै देउ मलाई अनि दोहोराई देउ ति कुरा जुन मलाई याद नै छैन अह मलाई त केहि यादै छैन

The dull head is hung down In the peace,before bell was rung Time to share condolence for alive body Since soul is taking flight with a soulmate Those eyes can console tussling minds Eyes show the success story Despite of doubts in the heart The soul is ready to meet soulmate And hence they departure together They both know They are just friends And friends can't be betrayer Then mind stop thinking Heart stops doubting Eyes stop watching As the soul and a soulmate start their journey.

While unlinking all the thinking An anxious mind can't stop concluding That- the water has lost the colour The tear drops have no taste The racing heart stops to beat And these days cloud feels light The dusk has lost the twilight The darkness dressed beautifully But nothing delights heavy heart The bare skin is kissed The destiny's best child is blessed As she can see Hurricane hurling its chariot To take her to foggy world To give her a new creed If anything such exits.

आगो होइन म दियोको मलाई के डर उडाइलाने हावाको हावा त हलुका म त कपास हावा जस्तै अझ हावा भन्दा हलुका झरेका ति प्वाख उडछन् बेतमास हलुका झरेका प्वाख के गुनासो गर्नु गन्तब्य बिहिन यात्रीसंग ? के भन्नु प्वाख्लाई अधिनमा राख्न चाहने चेस्टासंग ? के जवाफको आश राख्नु जो रंगिन सत्येता नभई श्यामस्वेत रंगको  पछिपर्छ ?

ति बेतुकका कुरा, अनि मेरो दिनचर्या कुरा मात्र होइन सायद सोचपनि केवल कुरा, सोचकै त मात्र रहेछ अनि टहल्दैजादा मुस्कुराई रहेका निर्जीव तस्बिर मनमुटाब भएपनि मुस्काई दिन्छन अनि त विशेष लाग्छ नत्र त सजिबले त तर्साईदिन्छ सत्यताले सपना भत्काई दिन्छ अनि त के बेतुक कै कुरामा दिन बित्छ सायद जिन्दगानीपनि

The power of being powerless At the void one can become clueless Still like the tip of the rod: fragile but not weak The aimless arrow plays the trick Projected by the bow that doesn't know The direction dreamed, but yet to explore Multifaceted mind concludes The forbidden zone is never to be crossed But the arrow has no plan It had already been projected Like a modern day missile Marked to move and destroy Sometime fact-finder avoids error percent But seeks to win weak case with dreamy argument And then hell and heaven collide Reason to be happy dies inside.

कागजमा कोरिएको त्यो चित्र कयौं अर्थ लुकेको तेस्भित्र बुझ्दा बुझ्दै समय बित्ने जीवनको आत्मीय पलपनि छुट्ने कतिधेरै बुझ्ने रहर अबुझ मनलाई केलाएर बारम्बार हेर्छ ओल्टाई पल्टाई सम्भावना अनि सम्झना संग संगै लटकिएको त्यो तस्बिर स्थिर अनि अमुर्त  ति मुस्कानहरु गतिसिल पललाई आज पनि अमुर्त राख्ने सामर्थ्य राख्छन पुस्तकका पाना पल्टाउन कै लागि महतो त केवल सब्दकोछ कारण  हरेक सब्दले  धेरै मतलब राख्छन मतलबी मन यो मेरो आफ्नै अर्थ  लाद्न खोज्ने, बिनाअर्थ सायद प्रकृति बिरोधि मेरो प्रकृति हरेक आकृति अनि अनुभूतिको अर्थको पछि लाग्ने

A witch, high spirited travels through the lodge Again she saw mystery and misery to unplug Aftermath of the huge battle, She lost her interest to know who is a winner and a loser She defended or started, she doesn't care But she knew only asset she was battling for Peace before being pieced by treachery She values the most than any victory. A witch with the wish to decode the plot Did her best: played by the rules and broken too after all she is a devil Yes, she is a devil To decode a plot that time can't unveil When the bright sun light can't cast the fact When the motioned moon can't take to right track She flies herself, breaks rules too because she is a devil witch, high spirited Nothing can stop her Or there was something that could She isn't sure But she knew what she was battling for Peace before being pieced by treachery She values the most than any victory.   

Tonight its all silent Tonight its all dark Night is looking darker than before Silence is sounding deeper than before No, I am no way scared But I am worried a lot Because I have left half of me Another half is somewhere I can't see But I know where it it Away in a land worried a little It might talk to somebody else A deep thought and nothing much I am alone missing when half of me is not